KINDERGARTEN

My son!!! Wow... So we had your first day of KINDERGARTEN!!! I can not believe it. Time has gone by so fast and I just can't get over how I have a school aged child! It seems like yesterday you were born! Seeing you grow up is so bittersweet. I love seeing you grow and learn yet I feel like time is slipping by me... I just love every second of my life with you and I never want these days to end....

We decided to send you to Northwest Christian... I went back and forth on if we should go here or the public school in the neighborhood. I just felt this is where God wanted you. He lined it up perfectly for you to be there. I also loved the fact that you would be in a school with smaller class ratios and strict policies and in the end all that matters is that you are healthy, happy and safe. I want you to have a loving and pure heart, I want you to love God, I want you to be a leader and say no to all the evil in the world. I just felt like this school was best for what I want you to learn. 

Your classroom number is 6. Your teacher is Mrs. Getz, and the assistant teacher is Mrs W. There are 18 kids in your class. Your school number is 20. You already have friends. They are Chase, Rilee, Ashley, Killian. You go to school from 8 until noon. Just half day! You eat one snack at school. 

The first day... Yea I cried, when you walked into that classroom I felt helpless and empty! I felt like my heart just left my body! I waited and waited for you. I could NOT wait until 12 noon. I am sure it will take time getting used to you being gone all morning.. but one thing I will NEVER get used to is being without you! I LOVE YOU so much it hurts. You fulfill me and bring me so much joy!

Preschool

Wow... looking back on my notes I just realized I NEVER wrote about your preschool experience!!! So here I am writing about it AFTER the year is over!! 

Timothy.....

 You went to Stepping Stones Preschool on 39th Ave and Happy Valley

You went just one year 2 days a week from 9 to 1130

Your teacher was Mrs. Berneburg

Mommy aided in your class every Tuesday and Kaylee went to the playroom on those days. 

Your best friend in class was Damien.

You loved recess and snack time

The song you sang at snack was... May there always be sunshine... May there always be family.. May there always be good friends... May there always be me.. and you and you and you and you. 

You loved going to school and especially loved the days I was in your classroom. 

On your first day of school... I was sad. When I would talk about you to your teacher I cried. The thing is that I just LOVE you so much it hurts. You are my everything! You mean so much to me. I have so much anxiety about if I am making the right decisions with you and if I am being a good enough parent. As the school year went on things got better. I stopped crying so much and started to have so much fun with you.  I loved being in your classroom and watching first hand your growth! I loved getting to know all the kids in class... But what I loved the most was hearing you talk during circle time. Hearing you talk to the other kids. And just seeing you interact with everyone. We had such a fun year. As the end of the year came close I again got sad! Sad to close this chapter on preschool, sad that you are becoming such a big kid, and sad that you would be starting kindergarten next! But also PROUD. Proud to call you my son, proud to see you mature, proud to see that you are a special person with a beautiful heart! 

Your best friend in class was Damien. He was also the kid that cried almost every day. You took it upon yourself to befriend him! I wish you could understand at your young age what that did for him.. He eventually stopped crying and his mommy told me that YOU were the reason he was comfortable at school and that YOU were the person that could make him stop crying. That is what made me the most proud! I will tell you forever... I DONT CARE about your future job, your future education, how smart you will be... what I care about is that you have a compassionate and servants heart! I pray this trait carries on in your life! You are so loving and i am so crazy in love with you I could burst with pride. 

Your mommy

The things you say lately....

I asked you to clean up the playroom...You said " You can help me clean up mommy.... Families do that!"

You said shut up... SO you got in BIG trouble!! I told you in this house you are NOt allowed to use those words.. You said " Mommy I want to move into the house where I am allowed to say words like that!"

When you play police you put on an outfit and you get your handcuffs and all and you call your handcuffs ... Cuffhands!!

When you play hide and go seek with your friends you count and when you are done counting you say...." Here I come, here I am not!"

The things you say at 5 years and a few months

You were cleaning your room and your tools and I asked what you were doing and you said you were " Decorizing your toll box!"

You call after nap time tomorrow today... tomorrow is just tomorrow!

You saw a witch and a scare crow at the store and you said.. " mommy I don't like humans who look like that, and I don't like humans who are mean!"

If you don't want to do something or taste something you say you are allergic to it!!

I told you to go outside and play fireman or something and you said.. "Mommy, I can't! I am allergic to playing fireman!

You forgot you Mr. Teddy when we were in the car and you wanted to suck your thumb.. I gave you a blanket and it was not soft enough.." Mommy this blanket doesn't work.. You need to give me something that is softer than 45 for me to suck my thumb!"

The other morning you woke up and you said.. " mommy.. I grew up!!! And not the kind that comes out of your mouth!!!"

HOME SCHOOL

So ever since you have been little I have always home schooled your preschool. I dreaded putting you in just two days a week for only 2 hours. I still wish i could homeschool you forever. Your daddy thinks i am crazy. 

Well lately you have been NOT wanting to go to kindergarten. The other night when we were talking to you about it.. you broke down in tears and said mommy why can't you just homeschool me forever!!!

There is a space class for us to go to that I tried to sign you up for and you started crying again and said mommy why can't we do space school homeschool!!! You crack me up!!!

Your singing..

You sing a lot now!! I just love how you sing to songs on the radio. You latest favorite music is the Frozen soundtrack. You song all the songs and even know what princess or character sings what! You recently started making up songs to sing.. Here is your latest..

Everything you have!
Everything you HHHAAAAVVVEE..
Everything you have..
is so much fun!!!

And then you just repeat this verse over and over. 

Lost your first tooth

So 4 days after you had a loose tooth.. you lost it!!! At 5 years and 2 months you have officially lost your first tooth:( I cried. Its so sad. But its reality and its happening fast! You had gone for the day with grandma and grandpa to ride the ranger in crown king. On the way home they called and said it fell out! You were eating a fruit roll up when it happened. When they called I cried. I was so happy for you because you were so excited but so sad that I wasn't with you when it happened:( I am with you every day even at school but I missed this:( When you got home you hugged me. You were so happy!!!

That night the Tooth Fairy came. You were so excited to go to bed! The tooth Fairy brought you $1! You were so happy and excited you told everyone the next day! 

My son, I love you so much it hurts. I wish I could stop time but I cant! I am trying so hard to embrace this time. You are such a big boy and that makes me so happy and proud! I LOVE YOU

first loose tooth

You officially have your first loose tooth!:( We were at the park today and we were having a picnic. You said something to me with your mouth full. I was distracted because the food in your mouth and right when I was getting ready t o tell you to chew with your mouth closed, I noticed that one of your teeth looked closer to the other one…It was the bottom front, right one. I looked again and as you talked your tooth moved! Then I touched it and saw that it was loose. Then I cried! My heart ached! And I wished I could stop time and have you stay my boy forever:( It hurts seeing you grow up so fast! But I have to start learning to cherish each day instead of wishing I had more time in the past! 

When we got home you told me you wanted me to pull your tooth out NOW! I asked why, and you said you wanted to be a grown up like Daddy! So I gave you the talk about how being a grown up is no fun.. You have cleaning, cooking, stress, you have to watch your future kids, be tired, and NO playdates or playtime!! And you said…. " But Mommy.. I want to be a grown up DADDY not MOMMY so I won't have to do all those cleaning and cooking and things that you do!" You are clever my SON! You are  already growing to be a Man, a leader of your home, a provider! That makes my heart happy! I thank God for you every second! I am so in love with you it hurts! My Son, you are my life!!!